I YEARN!  / Mamma To Angel (AADILLE)

I yearn...

It is my soul who yearns for you.
Memories we shared now all I have to hold onto…
I YEARN FOR YOU…

The reflection of the candle flickering across your Picture on the wall…
I YEARN FOR YOU…

I touch your clothes as it were you.
IT IS MY SOUL WHO YEARNS FOR YOU…

I smell your clothes and shoes as I YEARN FOR YOU...
To this I hold onto ever so dear.
My sweetest angel SON!
O HOW I YEARN for You. ….

Your smile a fresh image I hold so dear food for my soul the sound of your sweet voice now repeatedly encore’s in my head!
IT IS MY SOUL WHO YEARNS FOR YOU…

Some days I wish it to be okay but often all I do
IS YEARN FOR YOU…
IT IS MY SOUL WHO YEARNS FOR YOU…

218 Days still I pray to see walk my way! O MY SOUL IT IS THAT YEARN’S FOR YOU!

Take me…Hold me tight and say "Don’t you worry mamma everything’s going to be okay"

I hear your laughter I see your face I call your name take out your dinner plate.
It is my soul who YEARNS FOR YOU.

Silent for hours I stay I need to hear you speak
THIS IS MY SOUL… IT YEARNS FOR YOU…..

I look at the sky maybe this is where I will find you…
It is my soul who YEARNS FOR YOU…

These birds in the sky… maybe with a little message from you….
It is my soul who YEARNS FOR YOU…

Butterfly merely passing by you've come to say "no need to be sad mamma I’m still here with you"
THIS IS MY SOUL…WHO YEARNS FOR YOU….

MY ETERNAL LOVE.

Journey WELL MY SON TILL WE MEET AGAIN

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We will meet again...  / Mum To Angel (Aadille)

You’ve gone away...Left us today…

For another place and time…
So much more to give so much life to live… So much love you left behind
That’s what makes it hard for me… that what makes it so unfair…
We will meet again… we will meet again….
Though I must let you go I know it’s not the end it may take a lifetime but please do wait for me my SON!
I promise U….We will meet again
Don’t you cry….So I'll be strong… I’ll carry on cause I know that’s how you want it to be
Everytime I start to get sad not having you around… I remember its just “so long” for now…
Cause we will meet again… we will meet again….
Though I must let you go… I know it’s not the end…
It may take a lifetime wait for me my friend I promise u we will meet again…

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A TIME FOR VERYTHING  / Mummy To Angel (AADILLE)

To everything there is a time & a season...

A time to every purpose under the heavens...

A time to be born.....

A time to Die...

A time to weep...

A time to laugh...

So i prepare for our time to wipe our tears away.

I prepare for our time when we shall laugh again...

Our season of tears I know will end The glorious day we shall meet again... O what a glorious day it shall be....

JOURNEY WELL SWEET SWEET ANGEL...

Till we meet again

LOVE YOU INFINITY "Mamma"

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EASIER / Michal George (Cousin)

It gets easier without you I won't feel right I can't feel right wothout you. But it gets easier.

I was in misery without you I could not imagine life without youit was such a painful thing to go through to have you being taken away. But I.. dried my eyes.I guess I had to just let go of my fears of being alone... but it gets easier!

I thought my life was over without you thought I would be so sad coz you left me here to face all my fears all by myself with nobody else.

Now that you're goneI gotta move on but my lovings never changed it'll always stay the same!!

Sometimes its really hard to let go don't feel like moving on.. oh yeah I know just breathing air is had to bear when the one you love is not there.

I will always reminisce on our good times I just take it day by day I know it will never be easy. But I can say it gets easier!!

I won't feel right without you I can't feel right without you But it gets easier!!

love you lots ADZO

 

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COMFORT FROM THE BIBLE  / ALISHA WASHINGTON (NO RELATION )
Hello my name is Alisha Washington. I saw that you have suffered a lost in the family and I wanted to share my condolences. There are scriptures in the bible that will bring you comfort during this trying time two of those scriptures are found at John 5:2829 which reads "Do not marvel at this because the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out those who did good things to a resurrection of life those who practiced vile things to a resurrection of judgment.” And the other at Rev. 21:45 states "[God] will wipe out every tear from their eyes and death will be no more neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.’ And the One seated on the throne said: ‘Look! I am making all things new.’ Also he says: ‘Write because these words are faithful and true.’”

It is our privilege as Jehovah's Witnesses to share in a work that  people are being invited to benefit from a program that helps people learn the Bible’s answers to such important questions as: Why do we sometimes suffer and die? What is the purpose of life? How can you find real happiness?

We engage in this activity because we are genuinely interested in our neighbors. Our work is not commercial. It is our hope that those two scriptures console you and that someday soon we will be able to talk to you personally. Please feel free to get in touch with us at www.watchtower.org or 919-779-9718


Sincerely
Alisha Washington
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for mama from ADU  / Shaakiera
I STOOD BY YOUR BED
I stood by your bed last night I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying you found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear
"It's me I haven't left you I'm well I'm fine I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast I watched you pour the tea you were thinking of the many times your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today your arms were getting sore. I longed to take your parcels I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today you tend it with such care. I want to reassure you that I'm not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house as you fumbled for your key. I gently put my paw on you I smiled and said "it's me."
You looked so very tired and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know that I was standing there.
It's possible for me to be so near you every day.
To say to you with certainty "I never went away."
You sat there very quietly then smiled I think you knew ... in the stillness of that evening I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say "goodnight God bless I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand side by side.
I have so many things to show you there is so much for you to see. Be patient live your journey out ... then come home to be with me.
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I AM THINKING OF YOU TODAY  / Shaakiera Sch (close family friend )
I am thinking of you today my friend
and sharing in your pain
I know it seems as though your life
will never be the same
I've taken the same journey before
It's a road I know too well
But someone it seemed was always there
to catch me when I fell
There were the times He carried me
when my legs were much too weak
And the times He held me close to Him
when my lips refused to speak
There were the times He was my eyes
when mine were full of tears
And all the times He comforted me
and helped me face my fears
This friend of mine is with you too
He's been there all along
Just reach for Him and take His hand
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HOPELESS... / Chana Mum To (Angel Aadille )

Hopeless...

Today I almost believed there was hope!

Hope of just 1 day with no pain1 day no tears!

Day of no sadness or one day of just..."HOPE"!

HOPE that U would come walking through the door.

HOPE that in just a moment I will feel a peck in my cheek.

HOPE 2 hear u greet.. HOPE that 2night you'll come home to eat.

Yes HOPE that this awful agony was just one long bad dream
But soon I realize that there is NO "HOPE"!
Hope... of utter happiness!
Hope... of smiles not lurking by tears nor sadness!
Hope... of knowing you truly love!
Hope... for a night of sleep or eat!

"HOPE"of Happiness as I know it!

Life as I know it will never be!

I have no HOPE!

MY ETERNAL LOVE
Journey well sweet angel till we meet again

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RIGHT NOW by Scott Tallman:  / Shaakiera Schroeder
i found this letter on the grief blog...it truly touched me and im sure it will touch all that reads it the same...


From Scott to Shirley -

Thank you Shirley! Because of your comments I was inspired to write another poem titled “Right Now”. This one a bit different. When my son passed I received so many cards calls letters etc. But none of them really seemed to hit the mark. I know the thoughts and wishes were very heart felt but the words so generic. This was my SON I lost my creation the very spark of my life.

So I wrote something from the perspective of a family member or friend who is supporting someone who has lost a child. Let me know what you think of it.

I hope one day to hear a song from you!

All my love

Scott

RIGHT NOW by Scott Tallman: Dedicated to all grieving parents and their family and friends….

Right now you feel helpless
So lost and confused
God has taken your child
You’re feeling abused.

Right now your heart breaks
When you hear the name
Of the child you brought forth
Life will never be the same.

Right now you feel lost
You keep asking how
You struggle each day
What will you do now?

Right now you feel heavy
And every last step
Like pulling an anchor
You’re feeling inept.

Right now there is sadness
No one can ever know
The feelings inside you
The tears start to flow.

Right now you are angry
You have every right
How could God take them
Their future so bright!

Right now you are longing
Please just one more touch
One more smile one more kiss
For the one you love so very much.

Right now you feel lonely
Though many are near
Some will reach out
While others will fear.

Right now you are feeling
The pain so intense
When will this pain end
Will it ever make sense?

Right now there are no answers
To any of this
Right now you would long for
One moment of bliss.

Right now I am here
Your family your friend
Right now I will help you
My shoulder to lend.

Right now you must know
No matter what time of day
I’m here for you always
Together we will pray.

Right now I am sending you
All of my love
Right now I am with you
You the hand and I the glove.

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HELPLESS STILL  / Shaakiera Schroeder (close fam friend )
HELPLESS STILL

Six months ten days have passed
yet nothing has changed
time has not started since that April day…
Sadness remains
Tears constant
Helpless still…

Days remind me of a rollercoaster ride
not one you enjoy…
but the dreaded kind…
where every uncertain second …
so unkind
one day bearable…
the next a bottomless pit….
falling
Anger overwhelming
Emptiness always
Helpless still…

Alone… is what you prefer
Push and shove everyone thats dear
out of your life…you want no one near
if you dont love anyone…you cant lose anyone
Patience my answer…
but you wont hear
Your fear suffocating
Cant breathe…
Cant walk…
Cant live…
Helpless still…

Days are awesome …remembering your ANGELS smile…
remembering his antics…
that nearly drove you insane
Days are awesome
as you face lights up with the lost smile that was hidden since that day…
As if not allowed
suddenly your laughter transforms into a sob…
Heart breaking…
Soul wrenching…
Helpless still…

Sleep does not come easy
Helpless still
Eat…Whats eat?
Helpless still

they say the pain lessens
Who are they?
Helpless still

Questions unanswered
all the why’s you ask…
Helpless still

As you struggle
day by day
hour by hour
i am still here…right beside you…

reminding you …i care…i love you!

Chana you are always in my thoughts and forever in my prayers

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FOR Chana...for everyone!  / Shaakiera (friend)
~ Don't Tell Me ~
written by: Joanetta Hendel

Don't tell me that you understand
Don't tell me that you know
Don't tell me that I will survive
Or how I will surely grow.

Don't tell me that this is just a test
That I am truly blessed
That I am chosen for this task
Apart from all the rest.

Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me
Don't tell me how my grief will pass
That I will soon be free.

Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bounds I must untie
Don't tell me how to suffer
And don't tell me how to cry!

My life is filled with selfishness
My pain is all I see
But I need you now
I need your love unconditionally.

Accept me in my ups and downs
I need someone to share
Just hold my hand and let me cry
And say "My friend I care."

Paula Snyder as the mommy of Johnathon Ray Snyder 4-EVER!!



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You will never be forgotten  / Shaakiera Schroeder (friend)





~ You Will Never Be Forgotten ~
written by: Jessica Andrews

I’ll always see your face
The corner of your smile
And all the little things that no one will ever know
Like it was yesterday won’t ever fade away
Goodbye is just a word that I will never say

You will never be forgotten
A million days could pass us by
But what is time but just a dream
Oh I still feel you here with me
You’re more than just a memory
Oh you will never be forgotten

I can‘t hold your hand
Or look into your eyes
And when I talk to you
It just echoes in my mind
But If hearts are made of dust
And if we fell from the stars
I look up tonight and know just where you are

You will never be forgotten
A million days could pass us by
But what is time but just a dream
Oh I still feel you here with me
You’re more than just a memory
Oh you will never be forgotten

And the world just keeps on going
It has no way of knowing
That you’re gone

You will never be forgotten
A million days could pass us by
But what is time but just a dream
Oh I still feel you here with me
You’re more than just a memory
Oh you will never be forgotten


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for ANGEL AADILLES mom  / Shaakiera




~ A Mother's Heart ~
written by: Patricia Clausi

Inside I'm crying every minute of every day
I long to see your face and say the things I didn't say.
Memories are painful and minutes I didn't hold dear
I'd give all I could ever have just to have you near.

Mourning has not broken I don't think it ever will
There's nothing on this earth that void could ever fill.
Your spirit was so desperate I didn't know the depth
For all the love I gave you it now seems so inept.

I think about the first time I saw your little face
The love I felt as I held you in a mother's embrace.
I said I hardly know you and already love you so much
With your hand in my hand the warmth in that touch.

Each day I plead with God for just one minute with you
I'd tell you I was sorry for all the things I didn't do.
I'd long to hold you close and hear you say "hey ma"
I'd have the time to sit with you and you could play guitar.

Life got so busy I lost sight along the way
I took for granted that you would always stay.
If only I could go back and not have this regret
This hard learned lesson I never would forget.

There's nothing in life compares to our family and you
Just how deep my love was I pray somehow you knew.
I can only hold onto our family and try to let them know
My hearts attached to your's and theirs and I'll never let go.

I can't say goodbye I'll say till I see you again
I pray you walk with Jesus and He says "My friend."
I'll picture you in Heaven in peace and harmony
And long for the day you will once again be with me.

I love you my son
Your mother


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So hard  / Chanal Hajee (Mum to angel )
My sweet angel. Our days are long and ever so painfull.When does it get better? Its been 6 mnths since i last held you o so tightthe words "i love you"you whispered in my earnow i long to hear those words o so dear. Another filled with utmost pain. Does God not hear my plea? Our lives...will! COULD never be the samefor the one we dearly love we will never see in this life again. Tho you're in a better place... This paini know will never go away! In our hearts you will forever remain! So to you sweet angel I say journey well my son... Till we meet again. Love eternally mum popsshaqsmum jenoupa da Close

Missing you like the 1st day still  / Mum To Angel AADILLE (Mother)
176 days...Wednesday... 16:3:... Days are not getting easier. Eid...well nothing will ever be the same. we now know. in everything we do everyday that comes and goes...you should have been here.we try so hard to be okay... better... for your brothermostlywe know this is what you want us to do.although so difficult most painfull! i pray everyday to see you to touch you this i know one day i will understang and know complete happiness again. till then ii will be best i can be i will try a bit harder again tomorow Close

missing you  / Shaakiera Schroeder (close fam friend )
salaam Angel

i know its been a while but we all have been so busy with Ramadaan and then Eid...i know you understand.

i speak to you every night when i light your candle so i know you forgive me when i dont come on your site.

im sad to say Aunty shana and i didnt get to see you fam but i know your house was packed. your mom you still misses u soo much and i know it must have been a difficult day for her ...

i spent the day with my fam - you leaving so soon just made me realise how important our time with family is. Oh i have new nephew he so beautiful!

i dont know boy -seems like life is going on ...yet for some of us no matter what we do or where we go theres always something missing ...or should i say SOMEONE!

you are forever apart of us and we all love you so much.

SHINE BRIGHT ANGEL BOY!

FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS AND SOULS!

I LOVE YOU ...AUNTY SHOOKIE!

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SALAAMS ANGEL BOY!  / Shaakiera Schroeder (Family Friend )
Salaam Angel Boy… hope you all good?
NO! I know you good …you better than us.

You occupy my thoughts constantly… strangely…
Since I don’t have much memories of you …I find myself replaying scenes over and over in my head…or taking what your mom told me bout you and visualizing you actually saying those things and acting crazy as I came to find out that you did quite a lot! Lol! Don’t think your mom realizes but I really appreciate it when she shares things about you with me…coz it creates more memories in my mind… I look at your pics a lot …I don’t know why but I do it anyway! What do you do if you don’t have many memories???

So ADU we had a real cosmopolitan bash…Wow we all looked really great with your face across our chests. It was awesome chatting & hanging with your pals – somehow I felt like I was getting to know you a little better…your girls Kirsten& Kaylene….really crazy chicks but cool…they miss you so much Boeta …all of them do – Tjo and your pal Ches he was really jiving the whole night for you….I watched them imitate your dance moves…but for the life of me I couldn’t picture you being anything but the quiet shy guy that always greeted so respectfully before disappearing into your room or out on the streets….. Everyone had a really fantastic time….dancing and just having big fun - even Shaqo shook his thang for you…ah ma that was the best moment for me that he would put his shyness aside and do that for you his Big Bro ….

It wasn’t difficult to smile (coz we all know that’s what you want us to do) ….but the sadness in our hearts cannot be described….we wished that you were there in flesh….although we felt your spirit…in everything!

Then you had to show off and set the park on fire! Whoooooaah guys it burned …and we all stood there staring at it …so intently ….as if we could see your face and that very smile that burned in our hearts and souls…so so intense….. It was truly amazing ….
Your DJ playing <You on Fire> with the fire blazing behind him…I can only say that was a once in a lifetime moment…no one will ever be able to top that ANGEL!
It was all really difficult for your mom…all she wanted was to hold you and wish you a happy life…not being able to do that kills her…..

I have some really awesome footage …moments with family and friends …will post it as soon as possible …just trying something…

Anyway Angel Boy just thought id pop in for a quick chat…please know that you always in my thoughts and Duas even if I don’t chat to you as much…and I still light my two candles every night….one for you…and the other for your mom-so that she may find peace…. I know you worry bout your FAM…but rest easy that there is so many people who really care so much & that will always be there….

Missing you always….Loving you Infinity…for Eternity!

SHINE BRIGHT BEAUTIFUL ANGEL BOY


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our shinnig star  / Kirsten Nd Kyle Clarke Nd Bennett (close family friends )
hey adza its been a lng time since we've popd in we've been a bit busy but any way we here now we all miss u so much we've become tight wit ur mommy and pops its so sad to see shaqu but anyway his getting by oh ja and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MR ChOCOLATE BOY......il give mommy a kiss on the cheek for u promise anyway keep dat star shinnig mwah love ya O' YEAH!!GONE THO NEVER FORGOTTEN.the bushkoppise crew Close

Young man  / Mum Jen Granma To ANgel (AADILLE)

Hey Young man

 

You know I'v been thinking... I've not heard anyone use the term "RIP" as we all know you were always up & about... nver resting... so Im so positive that you're probably a youth leader teaching the youngsters how to play pool soccer tat-box Ads you were always so good at everything you did.

 

Shine on YOUNG MAN

 

LOVE YOU ALWAYS

MUM JEN

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HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY ANGEL BOY :-)  / CHANA Mum (To Angel Aadille )

Sweet 16th BIRTHDAY :-)

Hey Angel Boy :-)

You truly are amazing...

Perfect... even in death!

Amazing!!! Even in death!!!

I'm a proud mother :-) Proud to be YOUR Mother!

PROUD to call YOU my SON!!!

You've touched so many people's lives! In ways we couldnt begin to imagine!

The effort and time taken by so many who truely LOVE you Angel Boy! To celebrate your life my precious ANGEL!

Sunday augustus 23rd.... 

I stand at YOUR Grave... Wishing you  HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

The pain... The heartache? The emptiness? The dreadfull pain!

I cannot hold you in my arms... feel YOUR touch and wish YOU a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I Stand at YOUR grave... To wish YOU a HAPPY BIRTHDAY... No mother should have to do this!

I ONLY wish YOU were with me on this day... YOU should be with me... on this day...

The day I was blessed with a precious SON AADILLE!!!

I know soon... soon... we'll be re-united... O How HAPPY i will be... I will know HAPPINESS once again! TRUE HAPPINESS!!!

Till then... i hold YOU in my heart!

I remember in evreything I DO...

YOUR Smile.. YOUR Touch... YOUR Teeth... YOUR Hands... YOUR Feet...YOUR Hair... YOUR Eyes... YOUR Ears... YOUR Fingers!!! 

Yes PRECIOUS ANGEL...

I remember YOU... PERFECTLY PERFECT!

Even in Death!!!

LOVE & MISS YOU ALWAYS

YOUR mum... Even in Death

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